Tin Roof Rusted...

So two of my best friends came into town this weekend from ATL because one of their cousins flew in from Ireland... Nora was her name... They were going Honky tonkin... I guess growing up in Nashville I am desensitized from all the country music hype/crap... Blah Blah Blah... But I can see coming over from Ireland and wanting to see downtown and all that jazz...

So we are supposed to meet them at a Mexican restaurant in East Nashville... Rose Pepper. I don't know why everyone likes that place so much... The food is bland and the servers are blaze and the Hodge Podge decor... Don't get me started on the decor...

W e get there and My best friend (Anthony) and I order two Vodka and Cranberries... SEVEN FUCKIN dollars for well vodka... I'm sorry you are a Mexican restaurant in EAST Nashville. You have no business charging 7.00 for a cape cod. So the girls show up and the we start to have a little bit of fun... Keep in mind our straight asshole waiter keeps walking away from us while we are in mid sentence.

We leave Rosepepper and are on our way to the beer cellar. Apparently no one bothered to realize that it is downtown Nashville on Halloween weekend... Needless to say we got stuck in traffic. The girls decided to go to the Flying Saucer instead. I've never been to the flying Saucer and I know it is a beer place but if you have Liquor you should at least I don't now... Have some fucking Mixers?!? They didn't have cranberry juice so I had to get a Miller light... I have tried and tried and I just can't get into the beer scene... I don't like it and I don't think I ever will... I try it's just too damn bitter... So if I have to drink beer, I'll drink the weak shit... Britt's sister Amy is on her way with Nora the cousin from Ireland... They get there and Nora has forgotten her passport. Ok so I know they don't card over there but come on... You are in a foreign country, wouldn't you want to have some sort of I.D. on you??? So now after paying a cover at Flying Saucer and staying 5 minutes we are now on our way to The Tin Roof... Now before last night, I almost stepped foot in the Tin Roof once and didn't make it... The testosterone level in that bar is insane... It's like a seedy lesbian bar but for straight people... Bar fights in this corner... Breeders making out in this corner... Way too loud Gretchen Wilson Kareoke on the back patio. Girl... I can't believe Anthony and I survived... Anthony spit on some guys dick in the bathroom... The guy walked into the stall, pulled out his dick and started peeing with Anthony. I am SO glad it wasn't me. I would have dotted the guys eye... Is it really socially acceptable for straight men to do that in straight bars? That is fucking disgusting... Needless to say we left immediately after that to avoid a bar fight.

We left the straight bar and headed over to Tribe. Anthony's ex wanted him there... Why I have no idea.... All the guy does is stand there and get pissed at Anthony any time he looks at someone and just completely ignores me... Worthless needy ass... Shew... I didn't last log there... I told Anthony we needed to either go to Play and dance or go home... I couldn't stomach Anthony's ex anymore... So we went next door and hooked up with friends and danced for an hour or so... Ant's ex called him at one point... He was on the side of the building drunk out of his head and needed Ant to come help him... (Insert eye roll here). Whatever Mary...

Overall it was a decent night. I got to see Jenn and Britt so it wasn't a total loss.

Topher

Are you Running with Scissors?

One of my favorite Authors, Augusten Burroughs, wrote a book a few years ago called Running With Scissors. It was one of the most powerful and funny non fiction books I have read in my life. I have gone on to read all of his books and love them all... Well they have created a movie based on the book Running With Scissors and it comes out in Theatres today!!! It has an all star cast... including Joseph Fiennes, Alec Baldwin, Annette Bening, Gwyneth Paltrow, Evan Rachel Wood and Brian Cox... I strongly encourage everyone to go see this movie... If it is half as good as the book you will not be disapointed!

Topher

Homewrecking 101...

So I have had this crush on a guy that I go to church with for a while... I met him a few months ago the second time I went to this new church. There was a pot luck and he came and sat down beside me and two friends of mine... We exchanged a few sentences and then he said he needed to leave and politely excused himself from the table... I knew from the second I met him that there was an attraction between us. My friends picked up on it too... One of them said "Do you know this guy because I am noting some crazy tention betwen you." I replied that I didn't but I knew exactly what she was talking about... I shook his hand that night and said goodbye. I was trying to get a feel for his intentions... It didn't work... :-/

So the next Sunday I went to church and here he comes striking up a conversation with me and he is definitely giving off the vibe that he likes me. Then he drops the bomb... "My boyfriend and I..." Figures... I didn't think anymore of it at the time... I assumed he was just one of those overly friendly church types and went on about my day.

I didn't go to church for a few months afterwards due to some famliy issues but about a month ago I started back at this new church and of course as soon as I get there, here he comes friendly as ever. We went to lunch after morning service and talked and had a great time. Afterward we went to the mall and spent the day together... We then went to the evening service and he invited me to a singer/songwrite showcase. It was a great time... It could have easily been misconstrued as a date. I wanted it to be a date! I really liked this guy but he is "married" and they have been together for three years.

During this day together he shared with me that he hasn't felt "that way" about his boyfriend for a long time and that he has been thinking about taking things back to a friendship level with him but hasn't decided when the right time would be... Hmm... Haven't heard that one before. lol Nothing happened. We exchanged numbers, email and myspace usernames at the end of the night and that was that.

We started chatting via email at work on a daily basis and found out we had a lot in common. Especially a certain singer... I told him I would burn him a CD with some stuff he didn't have and would give it to him the next time I saw him...

I wasn't in town for a couple of weeks but came back to church this past Sunday with mixed CD in tow. There was another Potluck that evening... I suggested that we go for a ride and listen... He agreed and off we went on a trip down an old country road...

About six miles into the trip he puts his hand on my leg. It startled me but somehow I expected it. I told him as much and I think he thought I was offended. I wasn't. I was on fire but at the same time I had this nagging thought in the back of my head pleading with me. Asking me not to allow what I knew was about to happen to happen... The nagging thought lost the argument...

Unbeknownst to me (and him so he said) the road dead ended into the the lake as a loading ramp. We stopped the car and got out and walk down to the lake's edge. He was behind me and was so close I could feel his hot breath on the back of my neck. I felt his lips touch right below my hairline... I tried for a split second to reason with myself but there was no use...

I turned around and kissed him more passionately that I have kissed in ages... I had forgotten the feeling of fire that burns inside you when you were this into someone... The unending urge to get your bodies as close to each other as possible... We made out and scared the fish for a while and moved back into the car where we made out for over two hours! A car came so we had to leave... We went back to my car and made out and more for another two hours... After it was over we kissed one more goodnight kiss and went home...

At the time I didn't care what I had done... It felt soo good that I didn't want it to end... I didn't care that he had a boyfriend of three years. I didn't care about anything but myself. We have spoken once via email since this happened. I wonder what is going to happen at church now... We shall see... I tried to talk about it with one of my best friends... the one that has cheated on every singe girlfriend that she has ever had. She seemed disappointed in me and said almost as much... It made me sad. I guess even though she can do it, my friends expect more of me because I have always held high moral standards for myself... It probably shocked her. I still didn't need her judging me though.

The guilt has set in somewhat. I know what I did was not right. I don't regret it. I will not be repeating anything with this man again unless he breaks up with his boyfriend... I can only assume that he is feeling guilt as well... He has cheated on his boyfriend. Hell, maybe this isn't the first time for him. It isn't fair to anyone involved. Not fair to me because I cannot date the guy that I want because he is already dating someone. Also not fair to this guy's boyfriend. No one deserves being cheated on... I think that is what makes is to bad. I have never cheated on anyone. This is the closest that I have come to cheating or being involved in this sort of situation... I don't like it and can safely say that although my home wrecking days just started... They are also over.

Topher